Back in middle school, I fall in love with my female friend
But things not work out like i thought, she dont love me, she love other guy, and my childish act at that time break our friendship
And now its already 7 years, I don’t love her anymore, but the guilt because I broke our friendship still there and keep growing and I feel can’t just come to meet her and ask forgiveness, she may even never care with out friendship and she already move to other city
And I feel like that because this guilt which make me can’t ask my current crush to going out, even if we like each other already, I traumatic that I will break this relationship again
Deep down I feel that I need to meet my old friend before I can actually move on