I feel like I’m cheating on my boyfriend with a guy from college and I can’t bring myself to tell him because I’m a coward.

Me and my guy pal went on a night out, I stayed at his. I lied to my bf about where I was and who I was with. My guy pal kissed me and I started crying saying I don’t want to be a cheater. But we shared the same bed and cuddled all night, we were both drunk. My guy pal said he was sorry, he was a scumbag and shouldn’t have kissed me.

My bf is a great guy, works, pays all the bills and looks after me. But I have fun with my guy pal, he makes me laugh and makes me feel young. We message a lot and talk on the phone and I get excited before I see him. I feel like I’m having an affair even though it isn’t s***** yet.

I met him when me and my bf were in a bad place. He was away and I had depression. I think I associate my guy pal with happiness because he took me out, introduced me to his friends and I was less lonely and my depression has gone now, despite having it for a year. He makes me happy and I feel like I can’t end our friendship even though I know I should.