I am 30 years old and I have slept with a total of 7 people (3 of which I seriously regret). I spend my life acting like I’m miss goody two shoes and feel great societal pressure to keep my number of s***** partners down. It is a personal goal never to go above 9….

But the truth is that I actually want to have loads of s***** partners… and I know how slutty that makes me sound! I am so conflicted; outwardly I appear constrained and sensible and maybe even cold, but its all a mask – my actions conflict strongly with my desires. This is the problem with being raised a Catholic… all the guilt.

I am a serial monogamist, with an addictive personality… and the truth is that I am in Love, with Love. I don’t believe in one night stands (although sadly I had one when severely intoxicated – which is why I quit drinking!). I just want to keep falling in love and have s** with new and exciting people.

I have been in a relationship for nearly 5 years, and I would never cheat on my partner, but for the past 2 years the relationship has been mainly long distance as we are now living in different countries. I trust him not to cheat and I will not cheat on him. But part of me wants to move on so that I will get to feel that exciting endorphin rush again… I miss it.