In the great wave of s***** allegations against men in power who have abused women I could feel myself becoming irritated. I imagined fantasy situations in which women were lying, or using their s** to take power for themselves, or making things up to ruin people they didnt like. Sovreignty is important to me. that each person should have the ability to live their lives to the fullest. I felt myself, who has never done anything like this, and on the surface completely agreed that these men should suffer consequences, became IRRITATED by these stories. As if some power had been taken from me personally. As if My ability in this world had been diminished. As if being a better person to another half of the population and controlling myself were terrible things. As if I would somehow personally suffer without the ability to display my s******** unwarrented.

I am deeply ashamed by this. I hate it about myself. I want to be rid of this ugliness. I dont want to be part of a machine that robs others of their dignity and ability to live whole, complete lives. Their liberation is more important than my comfort. I’m sorry I ever thought those horrible things. I believe them.