Im a married woman with a toddler, the only anchor i have keeping me to my marraige…and i know everyone says its not good to stay together for the kids….but why not? surely my son deserves to have a family life with both his parents…i cant as his mother make that decision for him….its not mine to make….but…i am.. without a doubt….inlove with someone else. He knows Im married and have a child but still chooses to chat to me just about everyday…we as people have become little sparks of light for one another in our ever changing lives…he has told me that he wants to sleep with me but without attachements…and yeah i suppose i deserve that considering im the one in the complete wrong in the first place for speaking to someone who isnt my husband. But thats not all i want from him….I want…no…I need him to ask me to leave..that we;l figure it out and that we will have a happily ever after. I know this will never happen…not because hes not attracted to me…but because i love him and i need to see him happy…and he wouldnt be able to have a normal happy life with me even if i left my husband. Im stuck in a marraige where my husband has cheated on me or attempted to cheat on me multiple times and i have told my husband that we can give it another try….but for our baby…is this the wrong approach…if it isnt…why does every muscle in my body ache for someone else…why is he the first and last thing i think about…and why for the love of God…do i feel like i “belong” to him…
