I'm gay. I spent several nights not being able to sleep because of this, and I just feel horrible. I just wanna be normal, and sleep normally. Everyone

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I’m gay. I spent several nights not being able to sleep because of this, and I just feel horrible. I just wanna be normal, and sleep normally. Everyone loves me a lot, but I feel like if I told this to anyone, everyone would turn their backs against me. And I don’t wanna be gay. I hate it so much! I don’t know what to do. The girl I had a crush on got a boyfriend, and I felt like she was my only chance at being normal again. Now that’s gone and I’m really sad. I can only think about boys, and this has distracted me from my duties in school. I wanna cry, but for some reason, no tears come out of my eyes!

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My next door neighbor came over with some leftovers , and I asked her to come in for a min. I came into my bedroom and had her come in sit down for a min. I told her that I had a person of question to ask her. I asked her if her and her husband still having s**. She looked at me and said they haven’t had s** in years. I asked if she does she use the v******* on herself?And she said yes. Then I told her that i’ve been having fantasies about her and me having s**. I asked you if it could become true. She said that she don’t cheat on her husband but I told her that he’s not keeping up to his word for the marriage , right. I asked her how long has it been since a guy has gotten her off. She says it’s been years since she’s gotten off with another guy. I asked her if I could try , and she said , yes. My\nHead around dress in my room , and I got dressed and I went down on her to see how she tasted. She tasted fantastically , and I had her guide me into her , and I slowly started pumping her. All of a sudden, she started getting off from me f****** her and it felt so good feeling all the witness coming from her clip so I started pumping harder and faster.And she really started getting off, she kept c******.I think I got her off five times. I asked her we could do this more often.And she said yes. Set alarm Tuesday morning, she would come over after my brother left for work.And we get it on every tuesday morning , and she was loving it.

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