I feel very guilty about not telling my partner the extent of my s***** encounters in the past. I have had a longer list of people I’ve been with than what I told. I recently came clean about a lot of lies but still felt completely ashamed of all of the people I’ve been with. I’ve told her that I won’t tell her any more lies and I don’t feel like I can back track and tell her the truth because she will resent me forever for it. Further, I feel very guilty because I was with people of the same gender. It was just as an experience and I was in a very bad place at the time and I am having a lot of trouble forgiving myself for it. I’ve been reading articles and it says that hiding the actual number of partners you’ve had is the most common like in relationships and I know that me telling her is going to hurt her badly. The only reason I want to tell is so that I don’t feel guilty anymore myself so I’ll be hurting her in order to make myself feel good which is wrong. I am in a very vulnerable place emotionally right now and I need to be strong I can’t hurt somone to feel better and I need to be able to forgive myself. If put in the same situations now I would not make the same decisions. The problems will not re surface and It will only result badly if I do tell. I need to be strong and quite destroying myself because that effects her negatively.