I have been dating a woman for three years, a smart, elegant, sometimes silly but beautiful lady who loves me with all of her heart. The only burden which prevented us going forward was the distance. I have to be on an 18 hours flight just to see her. It costs more than $2000 just to fly, stay in her country and see her. It is financially pressuring me. But I thought I’d stay strong and walk through this together. But I met her.(Let’s call her Mel) She is marvelous human. She’s witty, smart, little sassy but that’s her charm. She attracted me not only as a friend, but as a romantic interest too. I truly love my girlfriend but Mel is there for me every time when I struggle. One day, I do not know why but I confessed my feeling to her that I was romantically interested to her. Mel felt the same as I did. I was surprised. But I still have my girlfriend. I am confused, I have to choose. I feel like I have to punish myself. I have to give up both of them since I made a morally wrong choice. I do not know anymore, I am confused. Guilt is crushing my heart. I cannot breathe because of the feeling of guilt. I want to be free if I ever have chance. I need solution but I am afraid to make choice. I do not know what to do. I feel like a fish without a fin slowly sinking into the water, waiting for the death shadowing upon me. I wish this never happened in the first place. I wish this would end…