I don't know my purpose. All I feel is this weight in my chest and the lump in my throat. I'm tearing up while typing this. I don't even know why or how

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I don’t know my purpose. All I feel is this weight in my chest and the lump in my throat. I’m tearing up while typing this. I don’t even know why or how did I get here.

I go upset tonight. I showed my emotions and let my family know my discomfort, but they got mad at me, too. That’s what I got. I should’ve really just keep everything to myself. I’m a disgrace. I’m a disappointment. They would never understand me, so they have the right to be mad at me. I’ll just take it. It’s my fault anyway, because I’m a s***. I want to throw up.

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