I’m a Christian introvert who doesn’t want relationships. You see, the Christian faith is all about relationships and unconditional love. This was all modeled by Jesus himself. My issue is Not with Him. I believe everything He said is right and true. My problem is that the core of the Christian faith is “Love”. Its the greatest commandment he gave and I just realized that after 20 years as a Christian, I’m never going to Love people. To me, people are just needy, emotional black wholes ready to s*** the very life force out of me. Everyone wants something! Plus, nothing scares me more than being totally “transparent” with others. I don’t really want anyone knowing by deepest self. To be honest, I don’t even want to know my deepest self much less being vulnerable to others. But that’s exactly what the faith requires. I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that Jesus is God, im not here to debate that, what I’m saying is that I cant seem ( I don’t even want to want to change) live out this part. So it seems like im the bankerupt noise symbols the bible talks about.