I dated this guy for almost a year, and we’ve been broken up for a year as well. During the year we were together, we had a pretty dysfunctional relationship, so I cheated on him. I let a guy eat me out, and I made out with another guy a few weeks later. I also sent pictures of myself to two OTHER guys, but I never had a physical relationship with those guys. So technically I cheated on him 4 times in that relationship. He only knows of one guy (a guy that I sent pictures to). The rest, he has no idea. A few months ago, after deciding to try and work things out, I had a change of heart, and wanted to try things out with another guy. That guy and I had s**, but he broke things off with me a few weeks later. I guess it was karma for what I did to my ex. But a few weeks after the other guy and I broke up, my ex said he wanted to try and work things out again and I agreed. I really really really missed him. But he has no idea about me and the other guy. So to sum it all up, I’ve been very unfaithful to him, he has no idea, and I don’t have the heart to tell him. I feel horrible. I feel like a s***. I really do love him and I haven’t done anything with anyone or even been tempted to in a while and I hope I can keep that up. I was just going through a really rough time. I know that’s not an excuse, but it’s true. I really want to make things work with him, and I want to tell him everything, but I know it would break his heart and he’d hate me. I really hate myself. He really doesn’t deserve this at all. No one does.