I find it ironic how many people truly ask me for help & advice yet I can’t apply that same advice to my own life. I struggle with perfectionism, every test score,experience, mistakes . I wish I were numb I can relate to the individual who said they feel as if everyone leaves them. It seems as if everyone is drifting away from me. Am I not pretty enough, do I offend, what in the name of the Lord is it? I want to open up to people I really do, but they always hurt me so why bother. I just wish someone would stay, is it too much to ask? In society’s mold of a teenager I’m successful, but behind the mask i wear I just wish I were happy.