Well.. I’m on my break and i really want to let go of this thoughts.
**I am a 23 year old female teacher under the course of Criminal Justice/Criminology. I have been teaching for three f****** years. I love my job and since this field is actually dominated by men, most of my student are boys. I am married, but we only meet twice a month or if our schedule will permit so. We are two hours away, and those weekends that we should be together are actually spent on my masters study, and his doctorate study.
So… I am having this weird crazy feeling toward my student. All female teachers will agree that YOU CAN IDENTIFY if the student likes you or not. I mean, with the way they look at you. Or those random moments where they have an activity and instead of focusing on the task, you can caught them looking at you. And when you look at them back, they will suddenly look towards another direction.
As I mention earlier, I have been teaching for three f****** years and I never did felt this before but one of my student is really…. Ugh. The way he looks at me and everything… And i hate it cause i think i am feeling the same! I cannot stare at him back cause im afraid i might blush or something. Yesterday he was kinda late to my class.. and i really prayed that he will come cause hes like the reason why i love that class. I kept looking towards the door, i am almost done in checking the attendance and luckily he came.
I dont know if he has a girlfriend, but considering his looks.. which is quite hot. Maybe he has one. I tried finding his fb account or twitter but there is no account under his name! Now i am stalking. This is reallllly freaking me out.
Geez I keep telling to myself that I am married.. we have no child but still that is not a reason to fall or to cheat with my husband! This is f****** insane and i just hope that this feeling would FADE AWAY………………. IM SERIOUS.
Last time i feel this kind of feeling is towards my husband.. so im really getting freak out right now.
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