i don’t know how i can be sure that what i feel for him is true love
if he is the only man in my eyes i really can’t identify anyone else a man . my heart skip a beat whenever i see him . i get really nervous and do idiot things whenever he is around . he is the only one made me feel safe . but i can’t shake the feeling that he doesn’t care about me
that he doesn’t spare a moment to think of me . why ? because he is the most handsome guy i’ve ever met , he is cool and i’m nerd , not so style or funny or even half pretty as the girls he knows . my friends tells me that he is in love with me but that is impossible , totally insane . i always get myself in the same trouble , loving who can impossibly love me . always my love is one sided all over the years , always being hurt no matter how defensive i am . why ? no idea maybe I’m sadistic or whatever . but this time is like no other i have never felt safe before , not with anyone in my world , the safer i feel with him , the more scared i get of getting closer to him
my problem is my feeling , i don’t feel the sweet pain in the heart all the time , or warm -hearted , only when he is around i feel it but anyother time i feel like i know that i love not feeling that i love him . no feeling whatsoever maybe sadness of being away from him , or happiness whenever i remember his face , but i don’t stay up late thinking and fantasizing about him , most of the time away i can’t remember his face but his name and everything about him is the only thing in my mind . crazy hah?
i know enough for today
