I have a crush on one of my classmates who has been my classmates for 11 years. I never had a crush on them the first year but I did after I started my high school with her. This means I have been crushing on them for 3 years now. But here is the thing, she is a girl and I am a girl in a religious school in a religious country. Just thinking about it makes me want to throw myself for having feelings like that on someone. I stopped talking to her after I started having feelings on her in order for those feelings to end but it never worked. I am a disgusting person and I cry every time I think about it.
