I always wanted to be one but was always scared of those type of women bit jealous too…These women are intelligent, dignified, those with unquestionable power and this sharp look that makes them formidably unapproachable.Simply devastating for underconfident Christian women like me. I got married and divorced too and the reason for my divorce I recognized very late.it took me time to realize that I was married to a person who was outwardly a man but inside was a woman I both feared and wanted to be.Our marriage was a love/arranged marriage and it was mostly done because his parents gave him an ultimatum to get married.It was short-lived and emotionally draining for my husband,he screamed at me, scolded me and even slapped me on three separate occasions for expressing my Christian views about LGBTQ community. I simply thought he was unhappy about some other stuff and it was an impulsive unintentional attack stemming from a temporary phase. I didn’t love him anymore but I didn’t hate him .either ways he was just troubled I could sense that. I too screamed at him at times but things took an ugly turn when he simply stopped responding. I could still remember the night before he proposed the divorce,I was just wondering how would this marriage be in future it would definitely sustain be like those couples who hate each other but still are kind of codependent.it was so nice because there is no lust involved.the next day was tensed when he proposed the divorce outside I was calm and accepting but in my brain multiple issues were raised. what should I tell my parents, was my first doubt, a Christian getting a divorce is not acceptable ,what’s wrong with a passion less marriage so many people do it .what’s wrong with me ?? my passive aggressive parents were angry said it was my fault,I’m still guilty about being a divorced woman why did you he give me a second chance.I knew about his transition 3 months ago.exactly on the first anniversary of my divorce could have been my fifth wedding anniversary Hecompletely hid it from me.My ex-inlaws blamed me for not discouraging his feminity.he voluntarily disowned himself and is now exactly that type of woman who I both feared and wanted to be. last week I saw her I really realized I was not a victim but a willful enabler of domestic abuse which made me shudder.
