I don’t know if this would be considered a dream, lie, fantasy, feeling, question, or guilt. But I feel guilty. I feel guilty for something so innocent. I am a Jewish girl, who often thinks about what could have been with my ex. He’s Muslim. Sometimes, I wish I was Muslim just so i could possibly end up with him… marry him. But it’s all a fantasy. And I feel sick about it, because it could never happen. And it’s sad. We’re still friends, but I always have a part of him in my heart I can never forget.
