I have done it again, life is going much more smoother than it was before.. A girlfriend who’s crazy about me, friends to rely on , a dad who cares to much but he doesn’t show it. I am here though and I have done it again, I’m thinking of ending my days every single morning… I would call me ungrateful.. Yeah that suits nicely on me. I don’t know what else to do. Life was much harder when I had to deal with a dead girlfriend and some fake sneaky friends. I couldn’t cope with the idea that somebody that important to me was dead but then again, I have managed to rebuilt every single thing lost from that horrible year. A year full of loses and failure a year of point zero productivity and self-esteem. Every single morning was worse than the previous one, living hell. My name is Jason Wolf I live alone since i was 13 and my days are s*** so far, at least i feel that way. This morning was just like yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that. I managed to put myself in a loop, my perfectly constructed loop. I don’t know if I’m going to continue living in the same situation every day and my text is a bit messier than it should but I was never any good at writing. s***. I don’t even write my essays. People call me educated, bright or smart but I’m none of those things I managed to trick every single one of them that I will become successful one day. The big guy who survived the west f****** side and became a man in the States. That was never the deal, that was never what I had in mind. Blindsided and full of lies that’s who I truly am. I guess there worse situations around here but i just feel like writing today.

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