I am attracted to girls that are in their early teens and fantasize about loving and holding them. I adore them so much and it’s kind of a curse in a way, to have feelings that you aren’t supposed to have. I never felt this way until I got older. In my thirties. I feel so guilty because I know the laws say its wrong to feel that way but I also feel a great appreciation for the beauty of youth as well. I feel a yearning for youth to be young and lively again. Most people probably won’t understand.
