i lie. sometimes about nothing important so i can feel i belong or that someone will like me. i lie when it is just as easy to tell the truth. i have lied about being sick so i could feel like someone cared for me. i have made up stories to look a certain way so i can feel like people love me. i know why i do it. i learned it as a child to survive and i just want to feel loved even though it is a manipulation. it is wrong and i want to change desperately. i just have trouble believing i am forgiven. i do not have the courage to tell the people i have lied to. i state it now because i know i need to name it. i am ashamed.
