Today I went to this guys house for the first time, we hooking up at a party once and have been on a few ‘dates’ since, but I didn’t think it was that serious (we’d only made out multiple times). Also I should add we’re both pretty unexperienced (I’ve done oral before but he hasn’t done anything but make-out). Anyways yesterday evening he texted me asking me if I wanted to f*** the next day, and I was so shocked and confused and said no and we should we should wait but that I was down for other s***. However, when I got there and we started making out and we started doing oral (mostly me going down on him cus he had no idea what the f*** he was doing!!), but after it was going for a while he flipped me over and asked again if I wanted to f***. I’m the kind of person who hates confrontation and doesn’t have the balls to say no so I agreed (not the first time a guy ‘pressured’ me to do stuff) even though it was unprotected (ik i’m f****** dumb). The actual s** wasn’t that bad it hurt in the begging but then just felt weird as it hit my walls, but I wasn’t even close to c******. I feel like I was ready but I didn’t like the situation especially for my first time. And now I regret it so much because I feel like he only did it cus he was h**** and he’ll just tell all his friends that I’m easy and I’ll get hella judged. Also, I don’t want to tell my friends because all except for one are virgins and they would for sure get pissed cus I’ve only had a ‘thing’ with this guy for like 2 months on and off and also he’s known or being a fuckboy and they’ll think I made a huge mistake (maybe I did but I don’t need people telling me) UGHHHH anyways ya thats pretty much it (OH btw I’m 15 and he’s 16).
