He thinks I am so strong, but I am not convinced. I’m scared all the time, and I’m scared most of proving him wrong. I have lost my footing before and I know that I can’t always trust what my emotions are telling me. I’ve kept the ugliest moments from him until they pass, but I’m terrified that they are going to defeat me, that he will witness me lose my battle and be dissapointed. He is the reason I want to be healthy, to be balanced. Because of him and people like him who inspire me, who really love, who are really kind, who try and succeed to be their best selves. God please help me be my own best self.
