i dont know why i do things sometimes it feels like i will always make a mistake one way or another and i dont want to. i wish i knew why i sent innapropriate photos to my terrible exboyfriend or why i was watching bad things online, or even why i hid a boyfriend. sometimes i wonder if i am thinking before i actually do something and i realize im not and it bothers me. i want to let the past go but yet i cant help but remember it. i cant help but want to let it go and something reminds me of what happened and i go back to the same steps and roots that i have done before.