I am so angry that I fell for her. I can’t believe it happened. We were just friends, then friends that got close. Too close. I am with someone else who I love dearly.
We shouldn’t have shared our secrets and hopes for the future. But then that’s what you do when you are friends. How could I have been so confused about that boundary? Oh yeah I remember – I am a girl too which is how I let my guard down to be so honest and open. I behaved just like I would with any friend that I have who is a girl. With guy friends you just know not to cross that line.
Then she told me she ‘liked me’. That got me all flustered because no girl has ever come on to me.
I feel guilty as hell as I love my boyfriend completely. I realise that I have feelings for her which came out of no where.
I have never been with a girl and never loved another girl in that way. I always thought I was straight. Perhaps I am curious? Perhaps I am bi? Perhaps I am just in love with another girl. What a head f***.