My brother s****. I hate him. He is a thief. He stole money from my parents credit card and they’ll have to pay. He hurts my mom and me. He verbally abuses everyone in the house. Yesterday, he told my mom that she should die but I think that he should die. He hits me. He once called me a s*** in front of everyone. I still remember it and it’s hard to forget since it was my own brother who did that. I used to love him but then things changed when I was in 8th. We were teenagers and at that time, I wanted to try a lot of stuff. He wanted to too. So I let him touch my breasts. He touched them, felt them and sucked them. And then, we kissed. It was a smooch. He wanted me to give him a h****** but I didn’t. After that he always wanted to try it once again. Always talking about it and making me feel like a s***. I wanted to die. My exams were going on. I hadn’t prepared the day before. He offered to help me learn everything but in return he wanted me to try it once again with him. I thought that he could help me and after that I would just say no but he wanted to do it before helping me. So I said no. I don’t know why I did all of that. I feel so horrible about it. I am scared of any other s***** act now and I don’t talk to him because I don’t want to get over-friedly with him. Now, he watches p*** all day and watches TV. My parents are worried about him but he doesn’t care. He treats my mom very badly. I wish I could kill him. I have so much in me that I want to let out. My mom doesn’t really love me. He treats her badly and whenever they’re in a fight, I try to defend her but she tells me to stay away. She once accidentally told me that he’s more important to her than me. I asked her, “Are you serious?” and she said, “No, no, only for now. I need to focus more on him.” That hurt me. A lot. I know everyone goes through tough times but I guess there are too many tough times for me. I’m the worst person on the planet and I know it. Even if I would die, no one would care. My parents could save the money they’re wasting on me and use it for good. My brother wouldn’t have a sister to be bothered by. My friends make fun of me and get irritated anyway. I’m fat and ugly. I don’t want this life. I want to have so much more than this. But let’s just wait and see…..