There’s so much wrong with me. I have type 1 diabetes, PTSD, and depression. I’m literally scared of everything. I looked at my hand and noticed my veins seemed a little darker and I immediately started panicking like I was going to die. My life is such a mess, I want to be able to stop worrying about everything and just live life. I want to be able to find love and just be happy. But I can’t do that in my current position. I’m much too weak.