I am 18 and male. My younger sister's boyfriend is the object of my fantasies whenever I masturbate. He is 17. When all of us went to a water park out of

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I am 18 and male. My younger sister’s boyfriend is the object of my fantasies whenever I m*********. He is 17. When all of us went to a water park out of town this summer, our parents put me in a room with him and my sister in a room with her friend Shelli. I can still picture him in his underwear and that amazing bulge.

He doesn’t know I jerked off watching him sleep.

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I must be open with you all, we’re here for a reason. Somehow, someway we all have a fetish that we must feed by coming here. For me it’s the obvious compulsion of desire of going through the punishment of being put in front of adolescent children and have them witness me going through the fear of being debased, insulted, made fun of so they can make the children find humor in seeing me experiencing going through the fear of being shamed then gradually graduating the feeling to total humiliation by being stood up against a wall and forced to n***** myself towards a solid hardness of such humiliation through force of self masterbation through e********** and through it being forced to admit my guilt of being afraid admit my cowardness as I c** to release the completion of my total humiliation through embarrassment by being recorded so I can witness the disappointment in the innocent eyes staring witnessing what’s being done to me and my lack of self defense as a grown man. My punishment for just thinking of looking at a child the wrong way before doing anything I should really be sorry for. What’s your fetish, why are you feeling guilty? Why should you be punished, for what and how?

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