My family is falling apart. My parents have divorced over money and I hardly see my dad only on some holidays. My mom yells at me all the time. I learn how to whistle and I have gotten use to whistling every once in a while and I don’t notice it. I whistled once and my mom yelled at me. I whistled again and she kicked me and threatened to hit me. My older brother died and I didn’t know him as well as I want to. He died a couple years ago when I was young enough not to understand and be that annoying little sister. I fight with my other brother all the time. It gets annoying. Sometimes I feel like school is more like my primary home not my house with my family. When I get so upset and scared I think about killing myself. I have even looked up the least painful way to kill myself, I write suicide letters, and I have thoughts about hiring a hit man to kill me.