Sometimes I feel so low that nothing can bring me out of it I hate how people today over use depression and how if they are having a bad day they are depressed. I have recently been very sad not crying sad but bummed out and not in the right state of mind just looking online I have found that I may be depressed but who knows that might only be what some guy says. I go through bought of sadness and loneliness but I never want to bother other people with my problems I never want to voice my concern over my own emotional stability I will never admit to myself or others that I’m depressed I find it to be a cop out to blame a bad day on depression I may feel alone but I am never truely alone my family and girlfriend are always there to support me but I am the one who they call when they are having a bad day sometimes I feel like it’s ok for others to feel the way they want but when I need to talk to someone I cannot not because of them but because of my own resistance to admitting I’m anything but the laughing smiling person that they can count on this is just a random rambling from some guy who isn’t down on his luck but down on himself