i wish i had a father figure. i wish i had ONE male influence in my life, just one. stupid fuckers. after my parents divorced when i was 15, my father literally just left me completely alone, didn’t call didn’t write and thought that my mother had brainwashed me into hating him so he just didn’t try. he never abused us in any way, and was a good playful father up until the divorce. and then he just quit. i wanted so badly to have a relationship with him and have him be protective of me, understanding, kind, always there. but we don’t even speak. i’ve never had a boyfriend. i’ve never had a male best friend. i have ZERO male influence in my life, let alone a positive one. why are they all so f****** stupid? why can’t i have a male in my life, just one, just ONCE. i wish i had a better father.