Sometimes I think something is seriously wrong with me mentally,but I’m comforted by the fact that crazy people don’t know they are crazy so since I think I’m crazy I guess I’m not. But I just don’t get myself,I don’t get life at all .im 24 but I still don’t know what I want in life.i feel like my life has reached a dead end,sometimes I just wanna die but sometimes I wanna live until I’m 90. Alot of things go through my mind.

I have no self control, I want to quit smoking but I always fail like yesterday I told myself that I’m changing for real I even got down on my knees n prayed hard n even fasted but it didn’t last for the whole day,I went back to my old ways.

I hate my boyfriend I regret moving in with him because most of the time I’m not happy,he is so boring and old fashioned,we never even go out,the only fun he knows is going out with his friends to drink beer on weekends,ww never do anything fun together. I always daydream about leaving him when I get a job but then he is a good man n good men are hard to find in this days but whatever after I dump him one day Il never date again. IV has enough of man ,I started dating too early

oh ya n I’m still not over my ex whom I haven’t seen for 3yrz I still think about him n want him so badly. I’m such an idiot n regret messing things with him because I think he was n still is my soul mate Il never love the way I loved him. I wish I can love my current bf that way.

ok my life is pretty boring,I’m lazy n ambitionless,every day I’m in bed watching tv. But I’m sick of that.i wanna start doing something good with my life coz time waits for no one. Its just that I don’t trust myself.i never do da things I plan to do n DAT makes me sick.
I’m tired of acting like a victim n having self pity n complaining about everything.i want to take matters in my hand n make thinks happen
yeah life Is not bad at all,

I just need to control my mind n start thinking like a normal human being