My sister causes me a lot of emotional and mental turmoil. I get no respect from her, face constant insults/verbal abuse, and yet in the end she always turns it back on me, saying I’m a b**** and she won’t give me respect until I give it to her. She treats my mom like crap, and acts as if she knows everything/can do whatever she pleases simply because she says so. I thought this would end in her early-mid teen years – I was very wrong. Every time I seem to get a hold on my chronic depression, or my self-esteem, she brings it back down again. To make it worse, she’s a year younger than me, and the baby of the family, so I don’t get much support on that end.

I have fantasies at times like this – when I’m shaking, angry, wanting to cry – of finally just fighting back, physically. Shoving her into a wall and shouting at her, hitting her, just to make a point – to show her enough is enough. But I hate physical fights/confrontation too much to follow through.