I’m going to start university in a few days and it’s just not possible, I feel sick when I think about it, I’m nowhere near ready to study, I’m not good at making friends, after I changed school it took me one year to talk to someone regularly and another 6 months to actually make some “friends” who I only hung out with in school and only at the end of the schoolyear did those friendships improve a tiny bit. I’m ugly and anti-social and terrified I won’t make any friends and then have to study and get a job, I’m just not ready.