I wear baggy shirts because somehow having the shape of my female body show makes me have anxiety. Knowing I have a female chest and people can see it makes me feel anxiety. My family tells me I am pretty and have no reason to hide it and on the rare occasion that I dont they tell me I look nice but I hate it. I dont want to look nice. I dont want guys looking at me and I dont want to be noticed. I hate it. I hate wolf whistles. I hate being noticed. I hate being considered attractive. I dont want to gain weight because they will just make my chest even bigger. I considered wearing a nice shirt on this mini trip we’ll be taking but I changed my mind and will be wearing a large shirt with Cartman from South Park on it that reads respect my authority. This isn’t feminist or man hating propaganda either. I legit get anxiety and feel sick and like I have goosebumps when ppl find me attractive or look at me.