I deserve to be raped and punished. I deserve to be beaten and molested and kicked. I am treated much better than I deserve. I will probably look for an abusive boyfriend when I get older, because if I get hurt then someone else won’t have to. I can’t hurt myself or kill myself because that would hurt my family and friends. And they don’t deserve that. I’ve already caused them too much pain. I would deserve all of it, though. I would.