I’m a guy and I’ve been struggling lately with my s********. I have a major attraction to a male coworker, but I’m not gay. At least I think not. It’s tough for me because I’ve been raised a Christian, and of course we are deeply taught to believe that homosexuality is wrong. Right now I don’t even know what to think. At times I have been physically ill over the feelings and emotions and thoughts lately. Work stress leads to the emotions also and causes problems with my job. My friend is a very nice guy and we hang out frequently and have become closer as friends. And always have a good time together. But then sometimes he goes to hang out with other people and will ignore me. That hurts a lot. Also I know he’s been experimenting with drugs and I’m trying to convince him to stop. I’m feeling jealously, and hate. Fear and confusion. My mind can run through so many scenarios of things that could happen, good and bad. I can’t stop thinking about him, or what he’s doing elsewhere. I can’t decide if I should tell him or not. Would that make things worse between us and I might get to even be around him anymore? Keeping it in as a secret is literally eating me up inside.