My mom has a very bad drug addiction and we can’t afford rent for our apartment, I owe my boyfriend so much money for helping me while I was unemployed. Yet she still blames this all on me, every single time I speak about my job, its all thrown into my face just how useless and worthless I am and just the never ending abuse, verbal and physical and I’m so tired of it. I’m twenty, and I’ve thought of death over 20 times. My boyfriend says I could live with him, but it just wouldn’t work out if I did. Stuck.