I don’t like to wake up. I have a much better time asleep and that’s really sad. It’s almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you’re so relieved. I wake up into a nightmare. :\ I broke up with my boyfriend a few months ago, and even though we were only together for a month, I can’t get over him. I still miss him and it hurts. It hurts so bad to know that he doesn’t want to talk to me anymore. That he doesn’t want to see me, or hear from me. He doesn’t care how I am. I care about him. And I know I need to let go of him, but I can’t. I sleep, and I dream about us being together. I don’t like waking up because he’s not in my life, and my mom is sick, and dying, and I’m so depressed! I wish everyone knew how I feel. Maybe someone could help me. I want to die. I want to die SO badly. And it’s not just because of my ex or my mom. It’s something I’ve been struggling with for over a year. I don’t want to see anyone. I lie in my room in the dark. Whatever is happening to me is my own fault. I’m doing something wrong, something that’s drowning me. I’m never going to be enough. I’m stupid, and lazy and completely worthless. I might as well be dead.