I tried to kill myself last month and I’m no longer on suicide watch. I lied to my family about the reason why I wanted to die. I told them I tried to kill myself because I was being harassed and bullied at school. Which technically wasn’t a total lie, I was being harassed.

Although the real reason I tried to kill myself is because I’m gay. I know my family will not accept me. Many of my family members, including my parents, have openly gay hating conversations often using the word “F*****”.I don’t hate my family. I know they’re not bad people, this is just how most of them have been raised.

As much as I know my parents and family care for me now, I’m afraid they wont if they ever find out.Sadly, I have a feeling they’ll find out quicker than I’d ever want them to. My mother has now been questioning me on why I’m being bullied at school. I’m lying and of course my she can tell.I know it’s only a matter of time before she starts snooping around and finds out the truth.