I’m still obsessed with this girl who I had been letting manipulate me. I had been too afraid to speak up because I didn’t want to lose her. And when I spoke up, she tried to double talk her way out of it. It hurt, and there has been a part of me that wanted to be in love with her. She was on my mind when I moved out here and I wanted to believe our chemistry could become something. I’ve been holding this secret back for so long because It would be humiliating to me to admit how badly I wanted things to work out between us, how badly I hoped for her to be the one and find out that she’s moved on. I’ve been obsessed about figuring it out so I could be with her.