I fell for a man from Iran who use to go to the same university that I did. He was older then me by 6yrs. I thought he was one of the smartest, and

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I fell for a man from Iran who use to go to the same university that I did. He was older then me by 6yrs. I thought he was one of the smartest, and kindest men I ever knew. He was not what you would call classically good looking, rich, or a snappy dresser. He was kind hearted, intelligent, and caring. I was a silly little girl back then and totally unworldly and naive. I hope he does not think back on me as an empty headed American girl he once knew. Where ever he is I wish him happiness in all aspects of life. I married a man who was the only man I ever dated. He treated me like I was not a person of value to him. So, I am leaving him. I pray I will meet the Iranian man I had met years before and he will see that I am no longer the girl he once knew, but a women. However, deep down I fear that I am not worthy of him and he deserves a better women then the women that I am. For this reason alone I doubt I’ll ever see him again and he will never know my life is better for having known him.

New Confession

God not only removed the wrong person in my life but another person connected that was an evil and dangerous criminal God ended their life. I forgive but I am wondering what this person would’ve done had they not passed away. This person wanted to use my relatives address to send me a letter but my relative said they were not getting involved in drama. Had God protected me from more emotional damage or did he prevent a fight or a murder from happening? I don’t mean any disrespect. I do forgive but I am thankful this person can no longer cause chaos or harm to anyone. I still get curious what this person would’ve said in the letter but at the same time I’m thankful God is keeping me safe. God is good all the time. I also one morning said that I’m going to church and that early morning God told me that he was going to give me money for offering and I simply said,Ok God. I go to church with my brother with a developmental disability. Just right before service, this lady that was the piano player that I’ve never met or seen before handed the usher $20 to hand to us. I asked, who gave it to me? What’s it for? He said the piano lady gave it to me and my brother and that we can decide on what to do with it or use it as offering but it was entirely up to us. Without a second thought I placed that $20 bill in the offering. God will bless his own children.

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