I am a mother of 3 at the age of 23. I have absolutely nothing to my name, we live with my mother, I don't even have a drivers license! Sometimes I feel

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I am a mother of 3 at the age of 23. I have absolutely nothing to my name, we live with my mother, I don’t even have a drivers license! Sometimes I feel like they would be better off without me, the intense urge to cut myself haunts me everyday. It has been a little over a month but I have been hurting myself for 12 years now. The father of my children, whom I am still with, abuses me. We have been together for almost 6 years and he has been abusive for almost all of it. Why do I feel so unmotivated when in reality I should have so much motivation? I need so much help, but nobody seems to care. I am a slave in my own house, I barely get any help with the kids or the housework. I know I do not work, but neither does my mom or my teenage sisters and they are very capable of helping, but they take advantage of me. I’m just so sick of this life that I am feeling isn’t going anywhere. I love my children dearly and honestly if I did not have them I would have been dead a long time ago!

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I fell in love with my best friend. I may have fallen so far in love that every day brings me pain. Not when he’s there, then I’m happy. Truly happy. Like everything matters and I can feel like myself. But I’m so lonely being apart from him. It’s like a part of me is missing. So we’re moving in together. As friends. And it kills me. But I need it. And now he’s dating a girl. And it kills me. I think it’s making have hateful, mysogynistic thoughts towards women in general and I don’t like that part of myself. I’ll never get to be with him and it f****** kills me.

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From “Etobicoke Life Magazine”
March 1999

“Walmart Workers Busted”

“A number of Walmart workers have been charged with theft of over $10,000….investigators used video evidence….workers removed security tags from VCRs….

Charged is J— Jasenec, age 24 and ……”

1. Etobicoke Life Magazine has been defunct since 2002, but you can research it at the Toronto Reference Library

2. This took place at the Honeydale Walmart

3. F*** YOU Sister Marie Howorth!! You had no f***** right to ask me private questions about my father’s death! The school board takes MY SIDE and even APOLOGIZED!!!

4. F*** YOU Judy W!!! F*** YOU Yvonne K!!!! Cause my mamma taught me NOT to steal! I was always an honest Bay girl! 😉

5. My father verbally abused my mother and my life was happier without him. Stop attaching everything I do to his death.

6.F*** YOU ALL in number 4 for attacking my ability on having empathy for strangers who die young or suffer. Having empathy for a stranger is not a bad thing. You think your Jesus would agree with you or me on that one?