I have really bad social anxiety. People just do not understand it. I think normals will just never know what its like and they simply cant even comment on it since its like we are worlds apart. They do not understand and probably never will. It’s an irrational feeling that I myself do not understand and yet I feel it and cannot deny it.

Today I added ppl in this game to my friends list. It is anonymous and I partly did it to make the game more manageable for myself not for socialization. I would not mind it if I ended up making a friend this way tho. Even though it is anonymous I am feeling anxiety pangs. I feel so nervous. Some of them added me back and seemed happy. Still I feel such anxiety that I had to turn the game off for a bit. Keep in mind it is anonymous.

People dont understand this and say things like “stop being shy” or “just dont think about it.” I cant do that. I just cant. Part of me feels like deleting the game and curling up in a ball. I feel sick.

Normals truly dont know what its like to feel this way. They think they do. They like to say everyone has social anxiety or feels shy at times. A person with similar issues to my own said its becoming a hip thing. I sincerely hope not because there is nothing cute, quirky, or fun about this problem that is social retardation.

It’s like wanting to talk but being unable to. Or wanting to walk and having the urge but you cant do it. You want to be normal, you want to blend in, interact, etc but you truly cant bring yourself to do it.