I hate everyone, my life is a hell and I want to die, I don’t believe in suicide but I wish that I will die. I think that I am dying, and I hope that I am. I read somewhere that there is such a thing as an “authentic deathwish” and that some people can decide to die, and they die without any apparent physiological causes. Do you think that if I wish hard enough, that I will die. I hope that I will. I don’t want to go on living. I’m alone, I’m suffering badly, my life has been intense torment for a long time, every day is a nightmare, and I can’t even sleep anymore. I think that people around me are trying to kill me by the way they treat me, I hope that they are trying to do that and that they succeed, I am unhappy and I want to die.