I just want to be like everyone else and have friends and go out and have fun and actually be invited for once to do something. I am sick of always asking people to hang out and no one ever asking me until the last minute. I am a goofy fun girl who loves to talk and laugh and be around people having a good time but not unless I’m with other people who are open and friendly and actually enjoy my presence. I’m so tired of being in social situations where I feel I’m put on the back burner or ignored because I’m not the type to just jump in a conversation anymore because I am always the one being ignored. I am always the one no one is interested in. Like sorry I’m not a skanky girl who parties every weekend? Are those fake annoying girls the only ones who get to have fun anymore? Does anyone actually value friendship and having someone you can talk to about anything? What more can I do. I’m not going to beg for people to hang out with me either. I’m tired of being me. There’s nothing rewarding about being me. Lets just be honest cuz it doesn’t even matter anymore, I hate myself.