When I was 2... I was raped by a relative who was 13-14. It was the first time that I EVER spent the night at my Auntie's(Father's side) house. Truth

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When I was 2… I was raped by a relative who was 13-14. It was the first time that I EVER spent the night at my Auntie’s(Father’s side) house. Truth is… I wasn’t scared of what he was doing nor did I find it odd. In fact, I thought it was a game because he was very gentle with me.. It was the first time I ever experienced anything like that… and I was attached to his affection, not the acts. For a long time I was angry with myself and disgusted because I thought I had “enjoyed it”… I was 2 and was tricked into enjoying something I DIDN’T UNDERSTAND!!

However… I thought about it for a long time and finally came to an unspoken understanding with myself. My body reacted… on it’s own and without my consent. It was a NATURAL response… that my body reacted. I had been physically beaten by my father… and when this boy, who had the same thing happen to him, do THAT to me… I got tricked into believing that that was LOVE….and that that was the only way I would ever be loved…

But it’s not the case… My body… anyone’s body will react to someone’s touch… if you have NEVER experienced it… and if you’re in a vulnerable state then you’ll be sucked into their twisted affection… and thrown into a world that will take a long time to climb out of… and you WILL need HELP… because it’s one journey that is hard to come out of alone.

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I hate that the women I want to have se.x with, you have to get to know them first and build a rapport. You can’t just say ‘Come to bed with me’ you have to talk about and do a bunch of unrelated s.hit that has nothing to do with s.ex. And even then, after all that you might not get them into bed.

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From “Etobicoke Life Magazine”
March 1999

“Walmart Workers Busted”

“A number of Walmart workers have been charged with theft of over $10,000….investigators used video evidence….workers removed security tags from VCRs….

Charged is J— Jasenec, age 24 and ……”

1. Etobicoke Life Magazine has been defunct since 2002, but you can research it at the Toronto Reference Library

2. This took place at the Honeydale Walmart

3. F*** YOU Sister Marie Howorth!! You had no f***** right to ask me private questions about my father’s death! The school board takes MY SIDE and even APOLOGIZED!!!

4. F*** YOU Judy W!!! F*** YOU Yvonne K!!!! Cause my mamma taught me NOT to steal! I was always an honest Bay girl! 😉

5. My father verbally abused my mother and my life was happier without him. Stop attaching everything I do to his death.

6.F*** YOU ALL in number 4 for attacking my ability on having empathy for strangers who die young or suffer. Having empathy for a stranger is not a bad thing. You think your Jesus would agree with you or me on that one?