Not a new one, I’m sure. I want to die. I just have to find a way that my wife isn’t the one who finds me. I love her, and she doesn’t need to find me. She’ll get by without me. I made the wrong decisions; PhD, and huge student loan debt, ADHD set me back several years, I’ll never get ahead because of the ADD. I’m a failure – I would like not to live anymore – I have failed at this life because I’ve neglected to see that ADD is a setback, not an an asset. I want to stop my brain from thinking. It keeps thinking it’s smart because it thinks, but I know it’s stupid because it can’t get me ahead. Defective.