Am I the only one that lies in my bed thinking no one will ever love me.
Now my life isn’t all that bad I’ve got a nice family a few missing grandparents and some great friends.
Now I’m in yr 7 and I’ve made best friends with this guy called —- and well we go to a all boys school and there is a all girls school right next to us and well me and —- had a goal for the end of the year.
We were going to try and know all the popular girls in yr 7 .
So of we went now me and —- aren’t really that confident.
We always went to a newsagent In the morning to meet all the girls .
But none of them talked to us but our other friends knew them but never introduced us to them and the one time I got introduced to a girl I got forgotern the next time I saw her. 🙁
But my friend —- he got one of the populars girls phone number .
From there on out it was a competition .
I asked for it and he said ok in a min … He never gave it to me .. I had to steal his phone to get the number …
It just got worse for me . —- asked her out but she said no … She said I want to be best friends not love friends . Later on they started sending hearts. and kisses to each other saying.i love you sooo much .
I fell into a depression . Thinking no one will ever do that to me but then one day someone texted me. It was a popular girl. But she didn’t know who I was . We started talking and we found out that we knew each other from when we were 5 . We went to the same childminder . I actually felt happy . But then I got even more shittier as I found that girl that he was sending hearts and kisses to told everyone about him and everyone suddenly knew him. I live one side of the school and he lives the other. He passes the newsagent every morning to go to school so he stoppes there and talks to the girls. When I’m in a different town having to take the bus in every day. So I couldn’t really go up to the newsagent . So I felt depressed again but what made it all worse was I had a car crash and then my dad had a heart attack . Luckily he survived . But my will didn’t I had whiplash and depression . But of course I wouldn’t tell my mum and dad that I was depressed . While I was recovering from whiplash no one cared about me my depression people from my primary only questioned what had happened . They didn’t feel sorry for me . Once I had recovered from my whiplash one fateful Friday my best friend —- and I were playing basket ball and we were getting competitive and well he accedentilly pushed me into the wall and I had cracked my head open . That day people gave a s*** but after that no one cared. I was still depressed when suddenly my selfish and ignorant friend realised that I was depressed he couldn’t help me he got his friend and she was really nice she texted me inspiring things and so did my other friend girl I actually felt happy . But to this day I am still emotionally unstable I am still sad and depressed no ne will ever care about me ever . If you are my one friend ..keir know that I am secretly depressed and I will never show that at school . I hope I will find better things in yr 8 …..