I have been with my boyfriend for 3 years and we both have full time fanacialy stable careers. I’ve hinted at maybe taking our relationship to the next step and I realy want a child. He keeps saying later just wait a couple years. I don’t see why now is any different then later.

Any way I had a mental break down and poked holes in all the condoms … he’s blind as a bat so he can’t see them … we have been using these holed condoms for a couple months with no pregnancy.

Any way I feel guilty but I know if told him about my break down he would never trust me again and that would be a waste of 3 years. I just want advice on what I should do … I already know what I did was wrong so please don’t tell me I am a monster just give e me advice please.