I told my parents I’m okay now. But I still wake up everyday wishing I didn’t. I want to die. I need to. I’m insanely stupid. I am behind in school(I’m homeschooled now), I should be in 10th grade but here I am in 9th still, I can’t do anything right, I am a waste of my parents’ time and emotions. All I do is make them stress and piss them off. They have enough to think about with wanting to divorce and my sisters……… Yet all I do is ask for things. To see friends, to go somewhere, to do something. I always receive a no and realize. Why do I continue?? I don’t deserve anything I have and yet……….. I am impossible to satisfy. I am a p************. I only hurt people…. And if I do commit suicide, that would make me worse. More selfish. I’m sorry to everyone that I have hurt. I’m sorry to my mom who tried to understand. I’m sorry to my dad who I know cared about me somewhere in his heart. My bf says I’m abused but f*** that, never will I say that. I have a family and I should be happy with that. I have food. Shelter. Clothes on my body. I am ungrateful and I am so sorry. I’m sorry to my little sister who has a bright future. Smart and level-headed 🙂 You will go far and I know it. I’m sorry to my older sister who I argue with endlessly, but I love her and she always had good intentions. I’m sorry……. I’m sorry to my amazing boyfriend who has always been there for me. Even though I lied, cheated, and cried to frequently. I have never deserved him, or anything I have. So ungrateful………. I’m also sorry to anyone who reads this